Lately I’ve been trying to figure out how I got to the position I’m in today. How did my life change from one huge lifestyle to another in the blink of an eye? The people I’m surrounded by, the places I constantly find myself in, the person I’ve become, how did it all change? So many times I want to just run away and start fresh, or even go back to a lifestyle I had at a different time. Whenever I was feeling down, I would take either that day or the next day and drive down to one of my safety zones in my hometown in Broward County.
When I was sitting in one of my safety zones I was thinking about how much I could not stand where I’m at in life at this current moment and then an old song came on the radio, “The House That Built Me” by Miranda Lambert. Now usually I just sit there and really think about whatever situation I’m facing in that moment, but this last time I decided to play some music. There’s two type of people in this world, those who listen to songs and those who listen to the lyrics of a song. I never realized until an old friend of mine pointed it out, but I happen to be one of those people who hears the lyrics more than the overall song. I haven’t heard this song in years and the chorus just left me crying. For those of you who don’t know the lyrics to the chorus it says:
“I thought if I could touch this place or feel it, this brokenness inside me might start healing. Out here it’s like I’m someone else, I thought that maybe I could find myself. If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave. Won’t take nothing but a memory from the house that built me.”
Hearing those lyrics made me want to get back to my roots and be the person I used to be. I feel like I’ve become so broken since moving up here and just wanted to get back the life I had before; the friends, the memories, everything about my past – just let me go back to my roots. But if you really think about it, is going back to your roots actually a good thing? Yes, there’s times in life where things appeared to seam so much easier, but if it was so good then why did the lifestyle change? I’m a firm believer of things happening for a reason. Yeah, there’s times we wish we never changed, but guess what? We did and we become better versions of ourselves. If I wanted to go back to my roots I would be a spoiled kid who yes, was happy but didn’t care about myself or anyone around me. One thing that I didn’t have back in my roots was a relationship with Jesus, the most important thing in my life today. Why would I want to go back to a life that didn’t have Him as a focus? Because I’m having a crappy day and wish that life was easier?
Going back to your roots isn’t always a great thing to do. Your roots are what made you, but a flower doesn’t stop growing once the roots are developed. You continue to grow, you move on with this process of life and you blossom into something beautiful. Your roots are what you should look back on as a learning tool to better yourself for the future. I’m glad I never went back to my roots. The brokenness inside me will heal, in time, and I know I’m going to continue to better myself day by day.
God has plans for you! You have a purpose, wether you think so or not. Don’t let a setback that God knows you are facing keep you from growing.